Thursday, 31 October 2013

Mini Confession #19 - Time to CHANGE .

Mini Confession #19
Time to CHANGE .
I confess that .. It's time for me to change .
And I , want the readers ( if there is any ) , to be the witness ( and probably reminder ) to this .
Firstly , I've gotten rid of those dietary foods / supplements that I used to take . In fact , I've decided that I need to change .
These days , I've been putting on weight . I've dropped my weight from 61kg to 53kg previously , and now I'm back up to 56kg . OOPS ! Haha , I promise I'll work hard to drop them back down again .
Thus , I've decided to start clean eating ( my own way ) & doing exercises .
For the rest of this post , I'll share what exactly clean eating is supposed to be ; and my plans so far !
As what the phrase states , it just means : Eat clean . Getting rid of processed foods , fast foods , preserved foods & foods drowned-in-sugar . This includes getting rid of : Soft drinks , processed ham , fast food , and basically , any unhealthy food .

The list above is a mini-list , but yeah .. So , how am I going to try to eat clean ?
This actually started from a blogshop that I knew , and she has an Instagram account ( @fightfeatfit ) dedicated to it ! I tried to eat clean previously , and after a while ( about a week ? ) I gave up :X
But now , I'm going to make it more long-term for myself .
My plans :
I'll be going to NTUC weekly / once per 2 weeks to buy some produce . Buying yoghurt , milk , fresh fruits , whole-grain bread , fruit juices , salmon , nuts , chicken etcetc .. Food costs a lot when you try to get things that are healthier , but it's worth it .
I can't buy everything organic and all ; but I'll eat healthily ! :> I know the following are not considered clean / healthy eating .. But I just want to upload them :X I aim to hit 50kg by December ; but probably the minimum would be 52 ? Time to get things right !
Soyabean Pudding with Strawberries & Honey Glaze
Strawberries with HL Milk & Fitnesse Cereal

Soyabean Pudding with Strawberries & Honey Glaze

Have been eating many strawberries because they are on sale in NTUC now ; or else my mum wouldn't buy them for me >< Hehe , I'll do my own Chicken Victoria ( from Swensens originally ) soon & post it up ! If I ever have recipes for clean eating / healthy eating or any updates ; I'll blog about them too !
Before I end this , I'll promise that I'll start eating healthily & exercise to get my desired body :X

Ask Me Anything #1 - Are you happy with yourself?

Ask Me Anything #1
Are you happy with yourself ?

New section ! I have so many sections T.T In this section , I'll be answering some questions that I've searched / been requested to blog about that will let you know more about me :) I've prepared 14 questions at hand already , but feel free to ask me anything that you want me to blog about !

Question of the Day : Are you happy with yourself ?

Random picture , will try to blog with more photos from now !
Answer : To be honest , I'm happy but I'm not .
I'm happy with myself . 
Firstly , I've dropped a few kilograms as compared to the past years . From that , I've gained self-confidence and eventually changed myself . For the better or worse , I changed . I used to wear my PE attire everywhere I go , but now I wear tanks / bustiers / bralets / highwaist etc . In short , I've broke out of my old shell .
Secondly , I've managed my own blogshop for over 4 years . From Primary 5 till now ( probably 5 years ago ) , I've been handling blogshops . I've collaborated with a few of my friends before , but those ended up failing . We also had some quarrels , which soured our friendships . Thus , I decided to start up my own blogshop . From these blogshops , I've met many amazing friends ; and also learnt to deal with some troublesome customers ><
Next , I've done things I never thought I would . By this , I mean things like voluntary activities and giving items away . I've done many CIP activities from helping out at sports events to doing flag day ; I've even made a trip down to SPCA . I've given many of my items away that I would've just thrown away previously .
However , at the same time , I'm not .
As a teenage girl , I'm getting self-conscious . With that , comes being unsatisfied with myself . Constantly thinking why I'm not a UK6 , why I can't seem to slim down that much .. The way I look starts to affect me .

Similarly , I have many negative thoughts ; to the extent that I've gotten Bipolar Disorder ( manic depression ) . Everything became so fragile in my life , it seemed as though the world is against me ; every visual I see looks as though it's criticising me . My health got affected , things around me started to change drastically .

Also , I don't like myself because I can never seem to be resilient . One very good example is that .. I'm always telling myself " I have to eat clean , have to exercise " . I'll go to sleep with the alarm set at 7am ; and the next day , I'll shut the alarm giving myself all sorts of excuses . <- This is going to be changed !

To sum up : I think that everyone is unhappy about something with themselves . It doesn't matter how many things you're unhappy with , be it your looks / body / personality ; it just matters whether you're true to yourself & being who you are . I don't think you should care about how others judge you , or try to make others happy ; because you have to be at " peace " with yourself , or you'll drive your life down the wrong road .

Sunday, 20 October 2013

Through Gerwyn's Eyes #32 - Work Hard , Party Harder .

Through Gerwyn's Eyes #32
Work Hard , Play Harder .
What to expect when my O Level is over ? This post will be all about it .
1) Project : Share the LOVE
I'll officially kickstart the project when O level is over :) Collection of items would start once again for people who are interested to donate their items . I'll be liaising with the people-in-charge for all the organisations that would be involved to arrange for their collection dates from me . Helpers would also be placed into action , everything would be updated here !
2) Blogging
I've came up with a list of topics to blog about , so do expect many new posts to make up for the lack of posts throughout this period ! Q&A may also be up , will have to see how things go :P
3) Working..
I currently have 5 job offers awaiting me to end my O Levels , so yeah . I have another thing on my list to do ~ Time management would be a problem .
4) Week-long date with my boyfriend :)
Hehe , oops ! From 12~18 November , please don't mind me if the two of us "disappear" from the face of the earth ~ We have many things planned from Sentosa to swimming , maybe some dinner dates as well as a prom day out with him ><
5) Misc. Items Launch !
Somewhere in December 2013 / January 2014 , expect to see a misc. items sale ! Sneaks would be given when the items arrive , but I'll give a rough idea now .. All items would have 2 instocks each , and mostly contain accessories :P Do expect floral crowns , monster university items , necklaces , bracelets , rings , suspenders , moschino belts , hairties , acrylic badges , snapbacks from Running Man .. Hehe OOPS . SHH , I said too much already . Nothing would be above $10 ( I hope ? ) , and it would likely be a postage-only sales :)
6) Santarina ~ Haha .
Christmas is coming soon ! After watching Ellen this morning ( I was lazing in bed .. ) , I decided to come up with a Christmas giveaway ! I'll be making a list of people that have been a good friend / blogshop / customer etc through 2013 , cause this is one of the best years of my life XD I'll probably need some people to join me for this , because gifts will be mailed via REGISTERED POSTAGE to the people who deserve them & I'll need addresses ! :> I'll also need people who would be willing to share costs for presents for various people , so do PM me if you're willing to share costs for people & I'll let you know if the people I want to give is the same as yours !
7) Song covers will be back on Soundcloud !
It's been a while since I uploaded any song covers , so they will be back :P I MAY look for some people to do covers together , have mini jamming sessions ; why not ? All covers will be uploaded on : :>
8) Giveawayyyy
I'll be giving away my 1.50m tall teddybear , to someone who would really deserve it ! It's worth a retail value of $150 , so please make sure that you'll treat it well if you win !
This is all I can think of right now , but other things would include signing up for various courses & assignments as well as polytechnic camps .. Oh well ? Those would have to wait . Right now , I have to try to concentrate on getting O Levels done well . Haha , not working ~ Till next time :X